An Expectant Mum's Perspective

This month we are please to introduce a first-time Mum-to-be Lacy. For the next several months we will feature a post from Lacy on the joys of expecting, the fears attached to a new pregnancy, and all the other hard things an expectant Mum goes through those 9 months.

Most of you know where I am coming from; I am a newly expectant Mum. These early weeks have so far been pretty difficult. As a first-time Mum-to-be I am experiencing all sorts of new feelings, both physical and emotional. One minute I am thrilled to be living my dream of carrying this tiny human inside of me, then next I am distraught and panicked at the thought that I am going to be responsible for this tiny little life. As a woman with health issues of my own I am a little fearful of how my pregnancy will go. Will I have a normal pregnancy? Will I have complications? As a high-risk OB patient I am afraid of everything that happens, or could happen. I know I cannot be the first to feel this mixed bag of emotions. But at this early 10 week stage I feel as if I am the first woman to ever feel anything. Hormones are a wonderful and terrifying thing!

I count myself lucky to have an incredible husband who is with me through every moment of my craziness. He is already changing the way he reacts to my emotional outbursts and fears. He is reassuring, calming, and tries not to be as short with me as I am with him. He reminds me this is just the hormones, you are not inherently crazy. He is right of course, and I thank him for his bluntness, but at times I want to say, "You try living with all these hormones inside of you then!"

I am still very early on in my pregnancy but I am already looking to all the things I will have to worry about. I have begun work on a birthing plan, planned to nurse my baby, and begun looking at schools. Yes I may be a little ahead of myself, but you see I have always been of the mind that if you are prepared you cannot be surprised. So I am planning everything I can think of. Much to the chagrin of my family I have already made lists. I plan to make sure I know my options in case something goes wrong. Perhaps I am overly thorough, hormonal, and a little crazy. But hey I am doing the best I can with what I have. I hope you will enjoy taking this crazy ride with me for the next few months as I undoubtedly will begin to realize, I cannot plan for everything.